I Was a God OnceNew Years’ Eve 2012, 10pm approx.- I was home alone, save for my brother who was presumably locked away in his bedroom engaged in some video game as he usually was. I was enjoying an after-exercise euphoria and decided to cool down in the pool.Water had been a source of fear for me for many years, although I could never explain why, I had spent much of my childhood outdoors and in the water. Then something changed in me, depression took hold, stole my childhood away and replaced it with fear. Fear of so many things, people, germs, crowds, certain sounds, even the sun and the water. I hid myself away in my room for the most part.It was only in recent years that I’ve begun re-assimilating, I still can’t swim in most places, but I feel relatively comfortable in my own pool, this was my first time entering it alone. I always jump in; the shock of the cool water instantly removing the heat from my body is invigorating.The pool lights glowing turquoise in colour, it was
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